scp r2 ♥ private conversation catch-all with shirou

[dereban]

[ insert shitpost of people dying when they're killed here later ]

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[dereban]

Yeah, that's... definitely no way to live. But even so, I think that you can figure something out. To live your life for yourself.

[diesifkilled]

It's... a work in progress.

[dereban]

A work in progress is better than nothing, I guess. Being aware of it is... a step, I suppose.

[diesifkilled]

It was a pretty big step for me. I don't know if I could've kept going on after that if I hadn't found something else to hold on to.

[dereban]

That's good.

At least you do have something to hold onto, Emiya.

[diesifkilled]

Yeah.

...Sorry for dropping all this serious stuff on you when you just wanted to gossip. I just figured that you might want to know.

[dereban]

You don't have to apologize. It's fine, okay? I... really appreciate you telling me that.

[diesifkilled]

...I've never really told it to anyone before. Not this directly.

[dereban]

. . . so I'd be the first one?

[ hhhhhhm ]

[diesifkilled]

Pretty much. I mean, you're the first one to have asked about it like that.

[dereban]

Is that weird, then?

[diesifkilled]

Maybe a bit?

[dereban]

Thanks for confirming that I'm a strange person. . . [ spoken rather flatly ]

[diesifkilled]

There's nothing wrong with being a bit strange. I'm not exactly normal myself.

[dereban]

I mean. . . you use magic? So, yeah. Not normal.

[diesifkilled]

Yeah. And I'm kind of abnormal even for a mage.

[dereban]

Why?

[ curiosity killed the cat ]

[diesifkilled]

It's all because of some complicated circumstances while I was growing up, but basically I can only really do one spell.

And I can't actually use it properly because my mana capacity is too small.

[dereban]

Well, I can't say it's a good thing since I don't really... like things like that, but it's better than nothing...?