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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
[Yuuto's smile briefly becomes more confident as he nods.]

Mm! I still have a lot to learn... But I want to be someone I can be proud of! If I can make the worlds I visit a bit better, then I'll be happy.

[Oh.

His expression becomes shy again.]


... Sorry. I almost got off topic. My point is, um. I still want to go on that journey together. I want to work things out, but... What about you? What are you thinking?
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 11:45 am (UTC)(link)
[And he can't hide his hurt this time. Yuuto is quiet for a moment, considering.]

Do you want to try..? Because... to me, at least... This is worth the effort. You're worth it to me.

[...]

That doesn't have to be mutual.
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 12:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Himeko!

[Yuuto's heart finally snaps. The circles under her eyes, her pale skin, the signs of not sleeping, of crying, all alone for a week-- He doesn't have to be loved by her to terrified for her.

So he finally gives in, grabbing her hands and trying to drag her into a protective hug. Even if he has to give up being a lover, Yuuto isn't about to give up being her friend.]


Himeko. Himeko... Nngh. I-I know... you have so many people. You miss so many people. You're hurting so much, aren't you? [Yuuto feels tears and they make his voice sound so pathetic and small;] If you think you made a mistake… That’s okay. That doesn’t make you ‘bad’ and not making them won’t make you ‘good.’ It makes you ‘human.’

I love that about you too. Your dark, you light… I love you.
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[He’s being selfish. Yuuto knows he can’t hug her problems away. He’s probably not on the list of people who can help her.

But he can’t keep giving her space to hurt herself in. Yuuto adjusts his hold, hiding Inaba against him so that she can cry.]


Himeko. It’s okay. You can rest… [He’s sniffling too and his voice shaking:] Stop hurting yourself. Please…
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 06:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Then tell me about it. Please… Good or bad, happy or sad… I know it’s hard. But please. Let’s try… We can fuck up together if we have to.
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 07:04 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't want you to be alone either.

[Yuuto shifts his hand to rub her back, wishing he could comfort her.]

Can you... maybe, let me stay? Until someone else gets here..? [His grip tightens desperately,] I can't leave you alone.
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Asakura-chan wants to help you. Satou-san and Shugo-san too.

The spirits do… Kokichi does… So many people want to help you too.
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 07:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Because you’ve been here for everyone else. You’re kind. You work hard. You’ve done so much for everyone and they notice.

Let them do something for you too. Please?
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I’m not lying. But… I won’t force you to believe me.

[…]

If they come, will you think about letting them in?
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Eheh… I guess so.

[She seems to be calming down. Yuuto keeps his grip, sorting through his thoughts and feelings carefully. This… is probably the last time that he’ll get to hold her, isn’t it? He puts sadness aside and tries to burn the feeling into his memory instead. It’s not fair that she’s so warm.]

‘Himeko’ or ‘Inaba?’
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 08:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[He didn't think that it would hurt this much. Yuuto's grip on her loosens, thoughts stopped. Replaying their conversation, their memories, everything that led up to their dating--

The promise to find him again.
The outburst that she'd made a pact with him.
Sharing their secrets, going on dates, improving and supporting each other-

Then he tightens his hug again.]


Will you hear me out?
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[personal profile] spacialeyes 2022-09-17 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I know.

I um... I agree. I love you so much. But I don't think what we have is a lie either. Or a mistake. I don't think I can stop loving you... Sorry.

[...]

You don't need a lover right now, do you? You need friends. So... Hime-- [ah. Yuuto tries to steady his voice, but it cracks with the tears he's holding back;] Inaba. I'll go away. Don't worry about my Rumor or anything else. Just worry about you. And um... m- maybe- We can be friends? If I can earn it again..?

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