If you are going to do that sort of thing... I hope you're doing it for your own sake and not trying to fill other people's desires. Or overdo it, for that matter.
[Yuuto's smile briefly becomes more confident as he nods.]
Mm! I still have a lot to learn... But I want to be someone I can be proud of! If I can make the worlds I visit a bit better, then I'll be happy.
[Oh.
His expression becomes shy again.]
... Sorry. I almost got off topic. My point is, um. I still want to go on that journey together. I want to work things out, but... What about you? What are you thinking?
How can you be so confident when I'm the fuck up here!? Who would want someone like me, who only falls in love with people who have these stupid goddamn traits! I hate it! I thought that maybe I was wrong, that I was just --
It would have been better, you know!?
I don't need to be in the picture at all, I already have...! I already have...!!
[Yuuto's heart finally snaps. The circles under her eyes, her pale skin, the signs of not sleeping, of crying, all alone for a week-- He doesn't have to be loved by her to terrified for her.
So he finally gives in, grabbing her hands and trying to drag her into a protective hug. Even if he has to give up being a lover, Yuuto isn't about to give up being her friend.]
Himeko. Himeko... Nngh. I-I know... you have so many people. You miss so many people. You're hurting so much, aren't you? [Yuuto feels tears and they make his voice sound so pathetic and small;] If you think you made a mistake… That’s okay. That doesn’t make you ‘bad’ and not making them won’t make you ‘good.’ It makes you ‘human.’
I love that about you too. Your dark, you light… I love you.
[She seems to be calming down. Yuuto keeps his grip, sorting through his thoughts and feelings carefully. This… is probably the last time that he’ll get to hold her, isn’t it? He puts sadness aside and tries to burn the feeling into his memory instead. It’s not fair that she’s so warm.]
[He didn't think that it would hurt this much. Yuuto's grip on her loosens, thoughts stopped. Replaying their conversation, their memories, everything that led up to their dating--
The promise to find him again. The outburst that she'd made a pact with him. Sharing their secrets, going on dates, improving and supporting each other-
I um... I agree. I love you so much. But I don't think what we have is a lie either. Or a mistake. I don't think I can stop loving you... Sorry.
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You don't need a lover right now, do you? You need friends. So... Hime-- [ah. Yuuto tries to steady his voice, but it cracks with the tears he's holding back;] Inaba. I'll go away. Don't worry about my Rumor or anything else. Just worry about you. And um... m- maybe- We can be friends? If I can earn it again..?
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If you are going to do that sort of thing... I hope you're doing it for your own sake and not trying to fill other people's desires. Or overdo it, for that matter.
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Mm! I still have a lot to learn... But I want to be someone I can be proud of! If I can make the worlds I visit a bit better, then I'll be happy.
[Oh.
His expression becomes shy again.]
... Sorry. I almost got off topic. My point is, um. I still want to go on that journey together. I want to work things out, but... What about you? What are you thinking?
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I don't know if I can make things work out, though.
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Do you want to try..? Because... to me, at least... This is worth the effort. You're worth it to me.
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That doesn't have to be mutual.
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I--
[ No.
She can't.
She absolutely can't do this. ]
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It would have been better, you know!?
I don't need to be in the picture at all, I already have...! I already have...!!
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[Yuuto's heart finally snaps. The circles under her eyes, her pale skin, the signs of not sleeping, of crying, all alone for a week-- He doesn't have to be loved by her to terrified for her.
So he finally gives in, grabbing her hands and trying to drag her into a protective hug. Even if he has to give up being a lover, Yuuto isn't about to give up being her friend.]
Himeko. Himeko... Nngh. I-I know... you have so many people. You miss so many people. You're hurting so much, aren't you? [Yuuto feels tears and they make his voice sound so pathetic and small;] If you think you made a mistake… That’s okay. That doesn’t make you ‘bad’ and not making them won’t make you ‘good.’ It makes you ‘human.’
I love that about you too. Your dark, you light… I love you.
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[ Her voice cracks even more and the dam breaks, finally. ]
I don't -- please...
[ She can't even form coherent sentences anymore, sniffling between words. ]
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But he can’t keep giving her space to hurt herself in. Yuuto adjusts his hold, hiding Inaba against him so that she can cry.]
Himeko. It’s okay. You can rest… [He’s sniffling too and his voice shaking:] Stop hurting yourself. Please…
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[Yuuto shifts his hand to rub her back, wishing he could comfort her.]
Can you... maybe, let me stay? Until someone else gets here..? [His grip tightens desperately,] I can't leave you alone.
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The spirits do… Kokichi does… So many people want to help you too.
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Let them do something for you too. Please?
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If they want to, they'll just have to come to me.
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[…]
If they come, will you think about letting them in?
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[She seems to be calming down. Yuuto keeps his grip, sorting through his thoughts and feelings carefully. This… is probably the last time that he’ll get to hold her, isn’t it? He puts sadness aside and tries to burn the feeling into his memory instead. It’s not fair that she’s so warm.]
‘Himeko’ or ‘Inaba?’
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[ She trails off. She really is making this official, isn't she? It hurts. ]
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The promise to find him again.
The outburst that she'd made a pact with him.
Sharing their secrets, going on dates, improving and supporting each other-
Then he tightens his hug again.]
Will you hear me out?
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[ There's a lot of other things that won't, either. She knows all too well that this feeling in her chest isn't going away easily. ]
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I um... I agree. I love you so much. But I don't think what we have is a lie either. Or a mistake. I don't think I can stop loving you... Sorry.
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You don't need a lover right now, do you? You need friends. So... Hime-- [ah. Yuuto tries to steady his voice, but it cracks with the tears he's holding back;] Inaba. I'll go away. Don't worry about my Rumor or anything else. Just worry about you. And um... m- maybe- We can be friends? If I can earn it again..?
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