dereban | scp r2 ♥ death notes

[ These are all in her room - she'll be giving permission to have these looked at after her death, and all of the notes are in Japanese, so THERE'S THAT I FUCKING GUESS

in terms of notes, there's a bunch of details of the basics they've found out about the place - nothing new that hasn't been found out in public isn't written here, surprisingly enough. She also has morse code notes (basically, a transcript of the letters to morse) and as much notes about MEDICAL SHIT ABOUT BODIES YOU CAN CRAM IN A DAY also uh if people pay real fucking close attention the paper is a little stained with what seems to be obvious tears.

other than that, there's this specific note written out (again, in Japanese): ]

It's possible that I might die in this game. If I do, there's a high chance that the one that killed me is potentially someone I trusted. I should have known better, but I wanted to give it a shot. I really did. I've made sure to note the people that I've told here, in the off chance that this information might help in any way.

Out of those who are alive, I've only told Kurusu the details of my role. The others that know that I have told that I have a role, but not the specifics are Arisato, Niijima and Atsushi.

Since a lot of you guys had misconceptions about the role, I'll line out how it worked for everyone:

I also know who the Cleaner is, but I promised that I wouldn't tell anybody who they are. But I will say this: they are on your side, just as long as you play the game. I decided to trust in that, so please trust them, too.

I don't know how much this will help. But I wish you all the best of luck.

I'm sorry I couldn't help you guys more from this side. I've left letters for everyone for all of you. Even if I'll still be a ghost and be able to communicate with you all... I don't know if I have the strength in me to do that.

- Inaba Himeko

[ also, footnotes IN ENGLISH: ]

If any of the monsters are reading this, fuck you. They will stop you. I believe in them.

[ ooc. all letters except for cinque and rean's (because lol they're not from japan) are written in japanese!! ]

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Hey, Kurusu.

Guess you're going to be the one to survive out of the two of us, huh? Looks like I broke my promise after all. You're free from letting me hear your gossip, it seems.

Honestly, though? I'm still completely floored at how you strong you are; how you manage to pull through all of this, and hell, you still are. You're the kind of guy that's headstrong and can support others so easily, aren't you? Even if you might be reckless, you have a good head on your shoulders. I genuinely think that you're a good person, unlike me.

I don't know why you and everyone else seem to think that I'm a better person than I actually am, because that's far from the truth. After all, who could like someone that can't trust other people? Not their friends, or their family. Who can only see the bleak outcomes and none of the good? That's the kind of person I am.

But I wanted to trust in you. Maybe it's because I knew what kind of game this was, or maybe because I wanted to make an attempt to open up after I've closed my walls for so long. It was difficult for me to even do that much and even have someone trust in me. Because, you know what? Seeing someone trust me honestly, and believe in me... that terrifies me the most. Because I've always seen people as my enemies.

Anyway, I'm sorry. I couldn't be useful, in the end. I don't know if I'll even be able to manage to do anything after this, either.

But... I want to believe that you can end this, as someone who's truly stronger than I am. I believe that. You better not get your ass killed, alright? I swear there'll be hell to pay if you do.

Edited 2018-12-14 04:29 (UTC)

"The moon rises over the mountains once again
Shining brightly on the one so sincere, so kind
Even if darkness tries to claw at his throat, he will most certainly persevere
To see light once again
To feel the wind against his cheeks
To dream a better dream"

Hey, Atsushi.

I've never written a poem before, so I hope that one was okay. Also, I'm sorry. I really, truly am. I feel like I need to apologize to you the most, given that you were the last one to see me off last night. Please don't blame yourself for all of this, okay?

It isn't your fault.

Don't ever think that it was.

I know that we're going to find a way to bring everyone back, and even though I'm not entirely sure if I can believe that entirely in spite of how Ichigo said it was possible... but I still wanted to apologize. I'm leaving you all alone in a lot of ways, and I hate that this is something that has to happen to you. There's a lot that I want to say to you, but I don't have much time to write it all down, so I'll make it as quick as possible.

I honestly don't know if I can comfort you anymore, or if I even can, as a ghost. I just simply don't know if I'll be emotionally capable of it. I'm weak, after all.

But please, stay alive. Take care of yourself. I don't want anything to happen to you. Please.

[ ooc. The kanji that talks about 'sincerity and kindheartedness' does have the kanji for his first name; also the first line and the last three lines are direct references to both The Moon Over the Mountain and Light, Wind and Dreams respectively. ]

Edited 2018-12-14 04:46 (UTC)

Hey, Cinque.

I'm sorry, I guess I broke my promise about staying safe. I didn't mean to. Never once did I wish to die, or to fight the monsters, or anything like that. I'm not that strong, in the end.

But you're kind.

Kinder than I could have ever imagined. Brave. Don't lose that light or strength of yours, okay?

I hope that you can still consider me your friend, though.

Edited 2018-12-14 05:18 (UTC)

Niijima,

You said that telling you that I had a role was dangerous, and you know what? It honestly probably was.

But I wanted to trust people. Maybe that was my downfall: trying to trust others in a place like this. I knew that I had to change, because I have a naturally dark personality in the end. Please take care of Kurusu so that he doesn't go off the rails too hard, okay?

Also, I had lots of fun going karaoke with you! I really enjoyed it a lot. The headbanging was especially surprising, though.

You're one of the sensible ones, after all, and I honestly really think that we need someone like you around.

Edited 2018-12-12 15:55 (UTC)

Arisato,

You're probably the kindest out of everyone here, aren't you? To be honest, it's because of that alone that I felt that you would wind up being one of my biggest enemies. I felt like I could trust you. It was so easy to, and it made me strangely happy to hear those words from you.

I don't know what will happen moving forward, but... please take care of yourself. Don't sacrifice yourself for others. Move forward. Live. And make sure that Kurusu doesn't do anything too stupid too, alright?

Edited 2018-12-14 05:22 (UTC)

Rean,

You know, the letter you wrote for me was honestly really nice. Also I really am sorry that my initial one was honestly kind of crappy. My writing style is honestly a little better than that, but pretending to be someone that isn't "yourself" is honestly a bit difficult.

Even if I have done it before.

Also, I honestly really had fun talking to you. About hearing some of the things of your world. And teasing you. Your headpats were... kind of nice, too. And also I enjoyed taking that photo of you at the animal cafe, too. Thanks for letting me pet the cat. That was the first time I got to pet one, and cats are actually my favorites.

Anyway, I did try my best but my best just... wasn't enough. I'm sorry.

Edited 2018-12-12 15:11 (UTC)

Hey, Emiya.

You know... even though you're pretty fucked up in a lot of ways, the fact that you're working on it speaks measure. I really hope that you can get to the point where you're your own person, free from a wish that isn't even your own.

I believe you can do it.

Also, I'll make sure to keep an eye out on Ichigo to make sure he doesn't try anything too stupid, okay?

Edited 2018-12-12 02:19 (UTC)

Looks like you're going to have to be the one that'll have to take care of morse code business on the other side, huh? Make sure to teach the others.

I don't know if I'll be able to help much, if at all. I'm not strong like everyone else is, after all. But you're strong, and I'm not talking about physical strength. You came here by accident and you're still here.

Please survive. Try not to stumble onto death by accident.

So.

About those glitter bombs from last night? Guess I didn't get to use them, given the choice I'm about to make. I'm really sorry. I really appreciated that you did that, and came over to help study as well, too.

Also. . . I'm sorry for making the attempt to spy on you as well, if you really aren't a monster.

I don't know if we'll still chat after I'm gone. I'm not strong enough to pull myself together and do something like that. I'm kind of sad, that I didn't get the chance to learn how to play that game - "Duel Monsters", was it? - from you properly, though.

Make sure to keep an eye on the others and make sure that they don't do anything reckless to get themselves killed or worse, alright?

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