Yeah, the oil monster. Almost died to it, it was great.
[ You can hear her voice dripping with sarcasm here. ] I mean, we could talk about that, but I'd rather not right now. I wanted to talk about us? I guess?
At that, Ichigo straightens up - and takes both of their hands into his own, looking at Inaba and then Atsushi seriously.]
...I - want to say this first of all.
I care a lot about both of you. Inaba, you're one of the strongest people I've met - and I don't want to lose you, and I want to get to know you even more. Atsushi, I...well, you already know how I feel about you, I think.
[He closes his eyes, before he continues.]
If either of you don't want this, then I understand. But - I don't think I can choose between either of you - not like this, at least. And if either of you decide that you don't want this, then...even if it hurts, I'd understand and give you space.
I don't want to hurt either of you, so....this was the best I could come up with - putting everything on the table.
[ Inaba herself has to steel her own expression because she knows that this conversation is going to be a serious one, but she manages to keep her voice calm and even, in spite of there being a voice niggling in the back of her head that wants to reject some of Ichigo's words, but--
That's not the important part here. And she doesn't want to really argue this point and get off track, either. ]
I actually. . . talked to Atsushi a little about it, on Sunday? That maybe we should have an open relationship. Which I'm totally fine with, I guess. Like we don't have to be completely obligated to just a single person.
[ Just putting that out there, but she should add, less serious: ] By the way, he also told me about your fun bathtime thing.
[ SORRY ATSUSHI SHE'S THROWING YOU UNDER THE BUS ]
[He has some important input for this, and he was ready to say it. But then Inaba went and betrayed him like that, and now he can't talk for a moment because he's left with his mouth open and gaping.
. . . I kind of want to hear this story now. But I think I should stop before I get ahead of myself because I think Atsushi might not be able to handle it.
[ Just look at his face. ]
Unless you want to find out if he's actually into voyeurism?
[That is a fair assessment, because Atsushi really doesn't look like he's ready to handle all of this. Not because he's upset or anything, but he just looks so lost. This is all so foreign to him and he doesn't even know what to think.]
I...er...c-congratulations...?
['congrats on the sex' cake time, clearly.]
Um...is there anybody else involved in all of this?
[Besides Ichigo, Inaba, Atsushi, and now Makoto. Oh, and Shirou too, since he saw that kissing video and knows just what Ichigo did.]
I-I probably won't. I never expected to find two people willing to put up with me like this, so that's enough for me. Though, um, I won't be bothered by either of you being with other people.
[It's not entirely for good reasons, though. He thinks he's inadequate as a partner, so of course anyone who has affection for him would want other partners too. Or at least that's what his self-loathing talking. He's just happy to be included in some capacity in this discussion.]
Ichigo doesn't pick up on that, though he does definitely pick up on the 'two people willing to put up with me' part, and he frowns.]
We don't 'put up' with you, Atsushi. I don't - and I think Inaba feels the same. We're both here because we like you enough to want to talk about this - about us. We love you.
[ When Ichigo's done making his statement - which she actually agrees even though Atsushi's sentiment is honestly one that she's carried herself because. . . well. Which is why after that's said and done, she's going for the forehead flick on Atsushi, because nope.
We're not dealing with this bullshit today. ]
I agree with Ichigo on this. I told you before, didn't I? About how I- [ ... Ichigo hasn't heard about this, so she actually visibly hesitates, tugging at a free arm and looking a little uncomfortable for a moment before she lets out a shaky breath. ] I threw my feelings away before because I always thought I'm inadequate, and I didn't deserve it? And I still kind of feel that way? So I understand how you feel, but. . . we aren't 'putting up with you'. I just have a lot of feelings for a lot of people because I've been alone for a long time.
[ She's been alone for so, so long. She should have been just fine with being friends, that's what she thought. But she couldn't contain her feelings. It was too difficult to. ]
And if you want us to prove that we care about you more than just simply doing that, I will.
[Hearing that is actually very reassuring- he needs to have such things spoken to him, he's never had it in the past and thus tends to assume that people's default response to him is 'tolerate at best'- though he does look a little embarrassed too.]
S-sorry, I didn't mean to derail the conversation. But, um, thank you. For telling me all of that.
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week 5, late wednesday
Inaba, that's who, because she is just now just gonna find them both and just go: ]
We need to talk.
[ There's an obvious urgency in her voice because Wednesday sure did happen. ]
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[Because while he was Sir Not Appearing In That Event, he sure did see it at least.]
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The What monster?
[GOD WHY DOES HE PICK THE WORST TIMES TO NAP]
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[ You can hear her voice dripping with sarcasm here. ] I mean, we could talk about that, but I'd rather not right now. I wanted to talk about us? I guess?
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Ok then.]
I-I guess we do need to, yes.
GMAIL DIDN'T GIMME THIS WTF
At that, Ichigo straightens up - and takes both of their hands into his own, looking at Inaba and then Atsushi seriously.]
...I - want to say this first of all.
I care a lot about both of you. Inaba, you're one of the strongest people I've met - and I don't want to lose you, and I want to get to know you even more. Atsushi, I...well, you already know how I feel about you, I think.
[He closes his eyes, before he continues.]
If either of you don't want this, then I understand. But - I don't think I can choose between either of you - not like this, at least. And if either of you decide that you don't want this, then...even if it hurts, I'd understand and give you space.
I don't want to hurt either of you, so....this was the best I could come up with - putting everything on the table.
gmail betrayed you, eski
That's not the important part here. And she doesn't want to really argue this point and get off track, either. ]
I actually. . . talked to Atsushi a little about it, on Sunday? That maybe we should have an open relationship. Which I'm totally fine with, I guess. Like we don't have to be completely obligated to just a single person.
[ Just putting that out there, but she should add, less serious: ] By the way, he also told me about your fun bathtime thing.
[ SORRY ATSUSHI SHE'S THROWING YOU UNDER THE BUS ]
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Inaba how could you do this to him???]
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And then she says that and he just. Stares at her a moment before -]
Pfffft....
[What.
Why is he trying not to laugh???]
I-I see. That's - good, then. B-Because, um...Atsushi isn't the only one I've done things with.
There's uh...Makoto, too.
[TIME TO THROW ALL HIS DIRTY LAUNDRY ON THE TABLE.]
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[ Just look at his face. ]
Unless you want to find out if he's actually into voyeurism?
[ OH MY GOD ]
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I...er...c-congratulations...?
['congrats on the sex' cake time, clearly.]
Um...is there anybody else involved in all of this?
[Besides Ichigo, Inaba, Atsushi, and now Makoto. Oh, and Shirou too, since he saw that kissing video and knows just what Ichigo did.]
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[He actually does look like he has shame, but he shrugs a little helplessly.]
And...for the record, I'm okay if you both do things with other people, too. I mean - that's only fair, right?
[Though honestly, he's just going by the seat of his pants with everything here. He never thought he'd be in this situation, after all.]
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[ She agrees with that entirely, nodding at his question. ] Not like I've done that sort of thing with anyone yet.
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[It's not entirely for good reasons, though. He thinks he's inadequate as a partner, so of course anyone who has affection for him would want other partners too. Or at least that's what his self-loathing talking. He's just happy to be included in some capacity in this discussion.]
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Ichigo doesn't pick up on that, though he does definitely pick up on the 'two people willing to put up with me' part, and he frowns.]
We don't 'put up' with you, Atsushi. I don't - and I think Inaba feels the same. We're both here because we like you enough to want to talk about this - about us. We love you.
[He does, that's for certain.]
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We're not dealing with this bullshit today. ]
I agree with Ichigo on this. I told you before, didn't I? About how I- [ ... Ichigo hasn't heard about this, so she actually visibly hesitates, tugging at a free arm and looking a little uncomfortable for a moment before she lets out a shaky breath. ] I threw my feelings away before because I always thought I'm inadequate, and I didn't deserve it? And I still kind of feel that way? So I understand how you feel, but. . . we aren't 'putting up with you'. I just have a lot of feelings for a lot of people because I've been alone for a long time.
[ She's been alone for so, so long. She should have been just fine with being friends, that's what she thought. But she couldn't contain her feelings. It was too difficult to. ]
And if you want us to prove that we care about you more than just simply doing that, I will.
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S-sorry, I didn't mean to derail the conversation. But, um, thank you. For telling me all of that.