[ Inaba honestly doesn't have any good words that she can say to that. Instead, she just slips her eyes shit and listens to his words and steadies her breathing.
Although she laughs a bit at what he says at the end, though. ]
I really didn't do that much for you to be that proud of me, Atsushi. I almost died several times back there. I had to be saved by other people because I couldn't do anything for myself.
[ In a lot of ways, she still feels inadequate. That's why she wants so badly to do something to change herself; she's wanted that for the longest time, because she's always seen herself as 'dark', as someone who had difficulties seeing the light. ]
And there were so many times when I just backslid. I thought of myself as a monster that didn't deserve anything, and I wanted so badly to go back home. Even if that meant. . .
[ She shakes her head. ]
But that's not the kind of person I am now. I'm different now. From both my past self and my 'future' self that was written down. And I think that maybe I can finally move forward.
I. . . want to do something in this world that only I can do. And I want to be able to do as much as I can for you. But more importantly, I just want to be with you right now and just not think too much about everything. If you'll allow me.
Because I love you so much, Atsushi. I don't want to let you go again.
cw suicidal ideation
Although she laughs a bit at what he says at the end, though. ]
I really didn't do that much for you to be that proud of me, Atsushi. I almost died several times back there. I had to be saved by other people because I couldn't do anything for myself.
[ In a lot of ways, she still feels inadequate. That's why she wants so badly to do something to change herself; she's wanted that for the longest time, because she's always seen herself as 'dark', as someone who had difficulties seeing the light. ]
And there were so many times when I just backslid. I thought of myself as a monster that didn't deserve anything, and I wanted so badly to go back home. Even if that meant. . .
[ She shakes her head. ]
But that's not the kind of person I am now. I'm different now. From both my past self and my 'future' self that was written down. And I think that maybe I can finally move forward.
I. . . want to do something in this world that only I can do. And I want to be able to do as much as I can for you. But more importantly, I just want to be with you right now and just not think too much about everything. If you'll allow me.
Because I love you so much, Atsushi. I don't want to let you go again.