Yeah, I get a lot of that. Like, for me, I keep finding that me and my past self are way too similar. Since I think about that sort of thing too, you know? Trying to compare the differences and similarities... and sometimes it kind of hurts.
Like wondering if, well, because someone is like this in memories you recall that maybe it's definitely like that. Like they're too similar, so you can't help but ask yourself questions. You know what, maybe I'm lucky that I don't share memories with other people. I'd get way too paranoid.
[ Raina, you're already too paranoid... although she does see that look on his face, so vulnerable and it makes her heart twist to see her brother, the person she looks up to, like this. ]
Putting that aside, though, I don't think you have to worry. If he is hiding things from you, I think it'll just need some time. Best not to force it.
As for the latter, if you're really that worried about losing him again, that's when you should talk to someone about it, right? You shouldn't have to carry these burdens by yourself. And there's plenty of people that would want to help, you know?
I know it's a little hypocritical of me to say that, as someone who doesn't really have friends, but... yeah.
...Yeah. It was nice at first, when we kept finding that even little things had carried over from back then. It's... probably a little stupid to say out loud, but it seemed like it was fate, you know?
[Stupid, or just embarrassing because even he knows how gay that sounds? It is a mystery.]
If you think that, though... I think I'd rather believe in that from you than from myself.
[He shakes his head a little at the last bit]
I know I should, but it's been part of the reason I've been afraid to reach out to them. None of that is really news I know how to break.
[ She can't help but chuckle a bit. Yeah, it's definitely gay, but Raina sure isn't going to admit that. ]
Sorry, sorry, I couldn't help myself. But I think that you should try believing in yourself a little more. And if you're scared...
[ She remembers being afraid to open up to people, as Inaba. Saying that they wouldn't accept her, and that things would wind up worse rather than better.
Maybe...
Just maybe... ]
If you're afraid to tell them by yourself, I can come with you to back you up. And maybe practicing what you want to say might help...? Only if you want to.
You're extremely obvious. But it's okay, because it's just me. I can easily see things like that.
[ And she remembers very well conversations with Taichi, figuring him out felt easy. Calling Taichi out that he liked someone else (not her, it couldn't have been her) was easy. But it hurt to admit it.
But he couldn't see through her, so at the time?
It was fine.
And, well, seeing Rean like this reminds her of that, just a little bit. ]
But don't worry, I'll support your relationship if you do decide to go for it. And if things go wrong, I'll be here for that, too. Anyway, you don't have to rush into things. You can just take your time.
[ Her smile tugs a little brighter as she squeezes his hand one more time and she finally lets go of him. ]
I think they're finally here with our food, so let's just eat.
[Rean seems calmed by that promise, at least. He can't trust in much, right now, but after talking everything out, he definitely trusts Raina with this.]
Thanks. Right now... I think I just want to see where dealing with all of this goes. After that, who knows?
[His smile's a little brighter, too, a huge weight looking like it's lifted from his shoulders.]
[ The fact that he trusts her with so much - and she can see that; after all, would he have said anything if he didn't trust her to begin with? - is honestly rather astounding in her eyes sometimes.
And seeing him smile like that, something more natural, makes her relax her shoulders as the food comes. ]
Yeah, and after a talk like that? This looks delicious.
[ Just let her grab the knife and cut the meat... she is absolutely starving and this will be all worth it, she's sure about it. ]
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Like wondering if, well, because someone is like this in memories you recall that maybe it's definitely like that. Like they're too similar, so you can't help but ask yourself questions. You know what, maybe I'm lucky that I don't share memories with other people. I'd get way too paranoid.
[ Raina, you're already too paranoid... although she does see that look on his face, so vulnerable and it makes her heart twist to see her brother, the person she looks up to, like this. ]
Putting that aside, though, I don't think you have to worry. If he is hiding things from you, I think it'll just need some time. Best not to force it.
As for the latter, if you're really that worried about losing him again, that's when you should talk to someone about it, right? You shouldn't have to carry these burdens by yourself. And there's plenty of people that would want to help, you know?
I know it's a little hypocritical of me to say that, as someone who doesn't really have friends, but... yeah.
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[Stupid, or just embarrassing because even he knows how gay that sounds? It is a mystery.]
If you think that, though... I think I'd rather believe in that from you than from myself.
[He shakes his head a little at the last bit]
I know I should, but it's been part of the reason I've been afraid to reach out to them. None of that is really news I know how to break.
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[ She can't help but chuckle a bit. Yeah, it's definitely gay, but Raina sure isn't going to admit that. ]
Sorry, sorry, I couldn't help myself. But I think that you should try believing in yourself a little more. And if you're scared...
[ She remembers being afraid to open up to people, as Inaba. Saying that they wouldn't accept her, and that things would wind up worse rather than better.
Maybe...
Just maybe... ]
If you're afraid to tell them by yourself, I can come with you to back you up. And maybe practicing what you want to say might help...? Only if you want to.
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...tch. I'm that obvious, huh? [He shakes his head a little.] It's fine. You can go ahead and tease, if it's just us.
[As for her offer, he smiles at her a bit more genuinely.]
...Thanks, Raina. I mean it. I don't know if I'll take you up on that right now or not, but I'll definitely keep it in mind.
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[ And she remembers very well conversations with Taichi, figuring him out felt easy. Calling Taichi out that he liked someone else (not her, it couldn't have been her) was easy. But it hurt to admit it.
But he couldn't see through her, so at the time?
It was fine.
And, well, seeing Rean like this reminds her of that, just a little bit. ]
But don't worry, I'll support your relationship if you do decide to go for it. And if things go wrong, I'll be here for that, too. Anyway, you don't have to rush into things. You can just take your time.
[ Her smile tugs a little brighter as she squeezes his hand one more time and she finally lets go of him. ]
I think they're finally here with our food, so let's just eat.
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Thanks. Right now... I think I just want to see where dealing with all of this goes. After that, who knows?
[His smile's a little brighter, too, a huge weight looking like it's lifted from his shoulders.]
Yeah. I'm starving.
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And seeing him smile like that, something more natural, makes her relax her shoulders as the food comes. ]
Yeah, and after a talk like that? This looks delicious.
[ Just let her grab the knife and cut the meat... she is absolutely starving and this will be all worth it, she's sure about it. ]