I'm not just saying it. Whether it's too much to handle or not is up to me, right? Then — my decision is simple. I don't give a shit. If you're saying that your 'true self' is horrible, then you really are a fucking idiot.
I've dealt with this crap before and that won't change my answer.
Because I will accept that. And I will accept you, no matter what kind of person you are. That's all.
Well, how the hell am I supposed to know if you don't say anything, huh? I'm not a mindreader, you idiot.
[ She then mutters under her breath, audible enough for him to hear: ]
Honestly. Why are you people like this. . . Every single time you people put on an act to please an audience, it's such a pain in the ass.
[ But then she clears her throat. ]
Anyway, it doesn't matter! You're not behind cameras here, right?! And you said it to me before, right?! That I shouldn't act so serious-- well, the same goes for you, you fucking numbskull! Why do you still have to put on an 'act' when there's nobody else watching, huh? Are you stupid? You're stupid, aren't you?!
I'm not so pitiful that I can't handle whatever you throw at me-- even if it hurts, even if it's painful, I'll just get back up! And more importantly: it's your life, so even if you might have to act in front of the cameras. . . when you're here, you're able to act however the hell you want, right?! Just do what you want to do and I will accept it! It doesn't matter if I like it or if I don't but if you just bottle everything up like this and don't say anything, you're just going to hurt yourself even more in the end!
And I. . . [ A beat, as she lets out a breath, trying to calm herself a bit. ] Maybe I'm willing to be your friend. At the very least.
[It's hard to argue with Inaba's logic. He had told her she could be herself, so why isn't he acting like himself here too? There are no cameras here, nobody would know.
And yet, he still hesitates.]
I can't be friends with any of you. Most of you are going to die here.
[The unspoken implication there being that he's a coward who doesn't want to get hurt by watching friends die.]
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I've dealt with this crap before and that won't change my answer.
Because I will accept that. And I will accept you, no matter what kind of person you are. That's all.
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[Sorry Inaba, he's just Like This.
But there is a hint of doubt to his voice, if that helps? Like he's doubting his assumptions of everyone hating him.]
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[ She then mutters under her breath, audible enough for him to hear: ]
Honestly. Why are you people like this. . . Every single time you people put on an act to please an audience, it's such a pain in the ass.
[ But then she clears her throat. ]
Anyway, it doesn't matter! You're not behind cameras here, right?! And you said it to me before, right?! That I shouldn't act so serious-- well, the same goes for you, you fucking numbskull! Why do you still have to put on an 'act' when there's nobody else watching, huh? Are you stupid? You're stupid, aren't you?!
I'm not so pitiful that I can't handle whatever you throw at me-- even if it hurts, even if it's painful, I'll just get back up! And more importantly: it's your life, so even if you might have to act in front of the cameras. . . when you're here, you're able to act however the hell you want, right?! Just do what you want to do and I will accept it! It doesn't matter if I like it or if I don't but if you just bottle everything up like this and don't say anything, you're just going to hurt yourself even more in the end!
And I. . . [ A beat, as she lets out a breath, trying to calm herself a bit. ] Maybe I'm willing to be your friend. At the very least.
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And yet, he still hesitates.]
I can't be friends with any of you. Most of you are going to die here.
[The unspoken implication there being that he's a coward who doesn't want to get hurt by watching friends die.]
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[ She laughs at him in a way that's a little bitter. ]
You're afraid, aren't you? Of getting close to someone and getting hurt in the off chance that someone dies.
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I think it's time for our conversation to be over.
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[ She doesn't leave just yet, standing firm.
Sorry, Dazai, you're gonna have to usher her out. ]
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Time to go.
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[ She doesn't say anything as she's guided out of the room, but she is decisively frowning. ]