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[dereban]

[ There's a sound of a gun being shot.

There's no other sound for a bit, as if waiting in anticipation to see if he'll turn around again. ]

[spacialeyes]

[The sound of a gunshot coming over the ambient background she had put on is enough to make him jump. This time he lowers the headphones entirely before turning around. He's trying to remember that Inaba is testing him and that she's not stupid, but the pink light of his power chases the human gold from his eyes anyway.]

Inaba?!

[dereban]

... Ahh, how boring.

[spacialeyes]

[Yuuto's eyes flash as his power searches for any bullets that may have been fired. He looks to be a mix of confused and alarmed.]

... Are you okay? I thought I heard a gun?

[dereban]

[ There's none! ]

I'm fine.

[spacialeyes]

[Yuuto begins to relax again-- Or at least, he tries to look relaxed. His eyes are still glowing and he's panicking under the surface, but doing his best to appear calm.]

S, sorry. I guess... Thinking about it made me hear things, or something. Mm. [He quietly lifts the headphones again, debating if he should retreat into the ambient noise until he's calm enough to fake a proper smile.]

[dereban]

Oh, that's because you did hear a gun.

[ She takes out her phone and presses a button which causes another loud gunshot to ring. ]

[spacialeyes]

[It would be rude to put the headphones back on now, so Yuuto drops them around his neck again. He nods slowly and offers a soft laugh, trying to brush it off;]

... I don't get it. Am I supposed to be angry about your weird taste in ringtones, Inaba?

[dereban]

It's not my ringtone--! I was trying to build up this whole scenario, okay?!

[spacialeyes]

[... Well, at least some of his paranoia is turning into embarrassment now.]

I'm sorry. I was worried someone was going to hurt you. If anything happened to you, I'd be- [... huh. Angry?]

[dereban]

Finish that sentence?

[spacialeyes]

[He finishes it in his head and realizes that his answer might be right-but-wrong.]

... uhhhhhhhhh.

Are you going to get mad if I do?

[dereban]

Just finish it.

[spacialeyes]

If anything happened to you, I would be pretty angry at myself for letting you get hurt... I'd carry that with me forever.

[Something else clicks;] There was never anyone to acknowledge my emotions before, huh? Just me.

[dereban]

Okay, yeah, I am going to get fucking angry at you because getting angry at yourself is-- Ugh.

[spacialeyes]

I-I'm sorry! I know it's arrogant of me and kind of pathetic and stupid, but I can't help it. That's how I feel.

[He bows his head nervously.]

[dereban]

At least direct that anger somewhere that isn't yourself, dumbass.

[spacialeyes]

Like at who..?

[He seems to recite something;] Humans will always be in conflict with each other. As an observer and a temporary existence, it is irresponsible for me to pick favorites in those conflicts and inflict my whims permanently upon a world that I don't belong to.

[dereban]

So what? I'm not from this world and I'm pulling that bullshit when it comes to conflicts and crap.

[spacialeyes]

...

[Yuuto lifts his head in surprise.

wow she's fucking right.]

Doesn't angry feel awful though? What if it becomes all that I feel?

[dereban]

That's why you need to be able to control your emotions.

[spacialeyes]

... And if I feel something strongly and can't control it, then my Distortion...

[Yuuto looks back at the computer. Remembering the flashdrive and his program; The failsafe, meant to kill him in the case of an emergency. He remembers how his life is slipping out of his control, right as he learns what he loves the most about living. Then vaguely seeing Inaba's reflection on the screen and remembering the promise he'd made to her.

He sighs. Thinking...]

I think... I'm angry at the Facility.

[dereban]

That's acceptable.

[spacialeyes]

... It feels really weird. My brain is buzzing? And my chest feels tight?

Am I angry or am I dying?

[dereban]

[ puts hand on his shoulder ]

Yuuto. I think that's what you call 'anxiety'.