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[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-18 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not my place to really say whether you were wrong or right, since I don't know everything. I just know everyone else's side of the story, and that's not fair to you.

[ She hasn't gotten over it, really. Her comments before about liking someone without really knowing who they are. The words she said to Yuuto even before this whole mess started. She couldn't get over it, the overwhelming feeling of guilt. ]

...it's not right to force yourself to feel anything for anybody. If you want to l...like someone, it's best to do that because you want to like them.

Having that choice, being able to feel happiness, pain, fear from that... I've been thinking about it. I think, that's still proof that we're more human than we think.
loveedition: (→anime | this girl is also gay)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-18 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Ryoko listens intently, hearing Inaba say her piece. Yuuto was someone that could be overdramatic, and Akutagawa seemed difficult to figure out and deal with, but would she really embellish the story to better suit herself? It became clear before long that, it wasn't the case. At least, she didn't feel like it was.

The way that she spoke about people she knew before, and how she squarely placed the blame back on herself. Getting mad at the concept of "Yuuto" thinking he shouldn't leave an impression... which, she'd understand. That'd irritate her too. Still, she was the one who put that concept into his head in the end... of him pretending, him deciding what love is meant to be.

Any other time, Ryoko would feel some kind of satisfaction from knowing that she was kind of right. This whole thing probably could have been solved had they just spent a little bit of time apart from each other. That sometimes, you need some self-reflection and time away from someone to know exactly how you feel, to figure it out...

...she didn't realize, as Inaba continued, that she felt her eyes get watery.

They didn't get that luxury, did they? Yuuto was someone who loved to give someone he cares about attention, even if they weren't necessarily dating. He's someone trying his hardest to figure out who he is. Even so, allowing Inaba time to figure out how she should feel was just as important. Give it some time... time he may not have, but time he'd have to trust her with.

When did the first tear even reach her cheek?

It felt all too familiar. It felt too recent to her. It made her think of things she said, things she had done, even as she tried to tell herself in her head that thinking about it right now wasn't helping either of them.

Being unsure of those feelings, not wanting to be unfair...

When Inaba's done, she just stares into her tea, trying to ignore the tears. It was selfish of her, she knows, but as Inaba spoke... she couldn't help but, for once in her life, think about herself first and foremost.

She was such a coward. ]


I'm sorry. I'm... I just...

[ She wipes at her eyes, before closing her eyes, smiling brightly as much as she can at Inaba. ]

I'm... really happy to hear that you don't hate him. Your feelings are important... you should have that time to... to figure it out.
loveedition: (→manga | maybe yes.)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
Ah... haha, yeah, I know.

[ She's probably not even talking about her, as she dabs at her eyes with the handkerchief. ]

...I guess it's just... some don't find worth in themselves unless it's through the ones they care about. To them, making sure their loved ones are the most comfortable is more important than anything else in the world. Especially if they seem to have a low opinion of themselves.

[ Okay. Okay, she's... composing herself now. ]

Is... that easy for you? It's good that you're willing to at least leave your home, but can you actually move around in disguise?

[ Ryoko's frame of reference for that is. Probably something that looks more stalkerish than anything. ]
loveedition: (→manga | uhh consider.)

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[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
That's... that's not a bad thing. Really.

[ Love makes people blind, huh.

...actually, that's really ironic, but she doesn't feel like she should point that out right now. Not that she really knows why it happened. ]


Oh, um... sure.

[ She'll wait patiently then... ]
loveedition: (→anime | oh shit!)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ And, nearly drop her tea when she spots this robot just, come right out of the room Inaba went into?! ]

Wh-- huh?!

[ ...how many people in this city can transform?! Is she sure this isn't another city full of magi?! ]

I...Inaba-san?!
loveedition: (→manga | i...interesting...)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 08:12 am (UTC)(link)
Uh... huh. I mean, no one really would know it's you, huh.

[ Unless she spoke? But why would a robot speak--

Okay, she knows a robot that would speak. ]


Sheesh... I never got anything like that for surviving in Nyoi-cho. The best I had was a regifted deer head from my friend back home. That never even turned me into a deer...

[ sigh... ]

Will you be okay like that? The spirits'll probably be surprised to see a robot walking around.
loveedition: (→anime | ara ara.)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 08:27 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, that's right. Shugo-san had told me how much the spirits enjoyed you reading to them.

Honestly, I'm starting to think the spirits can see the best side of you. I'm kinda jealous.
loveedition: (→manga | :sip:)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
The best kind of stories come from personal experience. That's what I've been doing when I've gone there lately. They don't need to know the true story, but if it's exciting and has a happy ending, that should be enough.

[ Happy endings were rare, after all. ]

Mmm... I mean, I don't think it is. Although, I've had enough drama to last me another life time over the past week. [ :sip: ] Everyone's got their good and bad points, even if trouble following them's on both sides of the fence.
loveedition: (→anime | yare yare.)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 09:09 am (UTC)(link)
Same here. If I hadn't gotten so busy, I would've stayed inside the rest of the week too.

[ Thanks to responsibilities no one even really forced on her. Okay, maybe one. ]

...still, after listening to you, I still think I'm right. You're kind of amazing.
loveedition: (→manga | that's cruel.)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 09:36 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. That's true, but resting after a tough battle's more common than you think.

[ She sighs, placing her cup on the table. ]

--I admire the way you think. How as hard as it is, you took the time to consider both of your feelings, and realizing that...

[ She pauses. Unsure of what she wants to say next. ]

...that it's important to know what your true feelings are. Even if it's not easy. Even if you want to force something that may or may not be there... it's not fair to them.

[ A melancholy smile. ]

I'm glad that... that kind of love doesn't make you delusional, Inaba-san. It's seriously, seriously, amazing.
loveedition: (→manga | i'm not crying)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 10:03 am (UTC)(link)
Well, there's no deadline on that. Take all the time you need, keep yourself distracted if you have to. If anyone gives you trouble let me know.

I might not be strong, but I'll do whatever it takes to protect my friends. [ A brief pause. ] That includes you.
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[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 10:13 am (UTC)(link)
I don't mind at all--

[ ...wait. ]

I mean, I guess depending on what it is?
loveedition: (→manga | i'll get mad you know)

[personal profile] loveedition 2022-09-19 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
Troublesome...

[ ...she sighs. ]

If something like that happens, by all means. I'll be your backup.

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