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For not being entirely okay with this world? Or not being okay with Kurosaki noticing that you're not entirely okay with this world?
I'm not okay with this world, but. . . it's not that what I'm referring to, or what he noticed. I mean, would anyone be completely okay with this world? I doubt I'd be the only one, Atsushi.
I. . . reacted a bit, during that last deliberation, to "fake bodies", if you noticed. It's- [...] It's one of the few things that fucks me up that the others were completely fine with. Like. . . I didn't choose to come back and stay here for myself at all. That's stupid of me, isn't it?
[ She curls her hand into a tight fist, nails digging slightly into the skin. ]
Since when did I give so much of a damn about other people that I'm suddenly the selfless bastard?
I. . . reacted a bit, during that last deliberation, to "fake bodies", if you noticed. It's- [...] It's one of the few things that fucks me up that the others were completely fine with. Like. . . I didn't choose to come back and stay here for myself at all. That's stupid of me, isn't it?
[ She curls her hand into a tight fist, nails digging slightly into the skin. ]
Since when did I give so much of a damn about other people that I'm suddenly the selfless bastard?
It's not stupid.
[He's speaking honestly here.]
What bothers someone is what bothers someone. I still hyperventilate when I see Kurusu-San without his glasses. Everyone has something that bothers them, and it's nothing to be ashamed of.
Though, um...I'm glad you decided to stay. Even if the 'fake bodies' thing bothers you.
[He's speaking honestly here.]
What bothers someone is what bothers someone. I still hyperventilate when I see Kurusu-San without his glasses. Everyone has something that bothers them, and it's nothing to be ashamed of.
Though, um...I'm glad you decided to stay. Even if the 'fake bodies' thing bothers you.
[ And the fact that he's being earnest about it all, is something that she appreciates. She sticks close to him with a bit of a sad, solemn smile, however. ]
I guess. I can't think about it too much because I might have a panic attack or something worseー
[ She trails off a bit, her words strained in her throat quite a bit as she tries to shake it off, not wanting to spiral back into those dark thoughts. Even if she is very much aware that she's like that.
There's no saving her from thinking like that, and that's because she still personally thinks that she's fundamentally broken; after all, even if the event affected her to the point that yeah, she has trauma now, she can't say that she doesn't-- but even if she could overcome that, her main issues, the way she is normally? That can't just be traced back to a single incident at all.
There just isn't any salvation for her inherent issue, no matter how hard she tries.
Even if she's opened up a bit, things for her are still difficult. ]
But. . . thanks, Atsushi. For saying that. Hearing those words, that someone is glad that I'm here, it means a lot. It's still a little strange for me, to have so many people just accept me as who I am and earnestly want to be friends with me.
I guess. I can't think about it too much because I might have a panic attack or something worseー
[ She trails off a bit, her words strained in her throat quite a bit as she tries to shake it off, not wanting to spiral back into those dark thoughts. Even if she is very much aware that she's like that.
There's no saving her from thinking like that, and that's because she still personally thinks that she's fundamentally broken; after all, even if the event affected her to the point that yeah, she has trauma now, she can't say that she doesn't-- but even if she could overcome that, her main issues, the way she is normally? That can't just be traced back to a single incident at all.
There just isn't any salvation for her inherent issue, no matter how hard she tries.
Even if she's opened up a bit, things for her are still difficult. ]
But. . . thanks, Atsushi. For saying that. Hearing those words, that someone is glad that I'm here, it means a lot. It's still a little strange for me, to have so many people just accept me as who I am and earnestly want to be friends with me.
[Atsushi will go ahead and move away from the 'fake bodies' conversation, since it looks like it's upsetting to Inaba. She has the perfect lead-in to something else anyway.]
It's strange for me too, you know. Back home, people either were afraid of me or wanted to use me. To have people who just want to be around me is...it's nice. And it makes me want to make people feel that same way.
[Oh look he's bumping shoulders again. He's here for you, Inaba.]
It's strange for me too, you know. Back home, people either were afraid of me or wanted to use me. To have people who just want to be around me is...it's nice. And it makes me want to make people feel that same way.
[Oh look he's bumping shoulders again. He's here for you, Inaba.]
[ Well, if he's doing that, she's just going to rest her head on his shoulder for a bit. ]
You already know how I feel about you. Like it's not some simple feeling that I care about you to the point that I'm not going to be scared, you know. But... it's nice, not being alone.
You already know how I feel about you. Like it's not some simple feeling that I care about you to the point that I'm not going to be scared, you know. But... it's nice, not being alone.
[That's fine, they can lean together for a bit.]
Mmm, I agree. I like not being alone anymore.
[Even if it's complicated and messy sometimes.]
Mmm, I agree. I like not being alone anymore.
[Even if it's complicated and messy sometimes.]
[ So after those two weeks after the game and coming back, she is gonna sneak back into Atsushi's room - or well, right outside it, still in her school uniform before knocking.
When she speaks up, it's with a purposely deep voice, trying to sound masculine. ]
Excuse me, I have one special delivery for a Nakajima Atsushi?
When she speaks up, it's with a purposely deep voice, trying to sound masculine. ]
Excuse me, I have one special delivery for a Nakajima Atsushi?
Edited 2019-08-06 02:44 (UTC)
I know it's you, Inaba.
[Still, he opens the door and gives her a warm smile. He's trying so hard to keep himself calm, but he feels like he's about to jump out of his skin. Six long weeks, and he's missed her every single day.
But instead of just grabbing her, he'll offer out his hand to her. Come on in, it's time for a reunion.]
[Still, he opens the door and gives her a warm smile. He's trying so hard to keep himself calm, but he feels like he's about to jump out of his skin. Six long weeks, and he's missed her every single day.
But instead of just grabbing her, he'll offer out his hand to her. Come on in, it's time for a reunion.]
Damn it. Maybe I should have asked the gods to give me a voice changing device instead.
[ She snaps her fingers as if disappointed, but she's anything but; matching his warm smile with one of her own, grabbing his hand into her own and squeezing it tight.
It's been too long since they've last seen each other. Way too long, and she's thought about him every single second. ]
I'm back.
[ She says those words in Japanese.
Tadaima.
Even if Inaba doesn't think of this place as home, it's still the place where he is. And it's enough to make her tear up already. ]
[ She snaps her fingers as if disappointed, but she's anything but; matching his warm smile with one of her own, grabbing his hand into her own and squeezing it tight.
It's been too long since they've last seen each other. Way too long, and she's thought about him every single second. ]
I'm back.
[ She says those words in Japanese.
Tadaima.
Even if Inaba doesn't think of this place as home, it's still the place where he is. And it's enough to make her tear up already. ]
Edited 2019-08-06 02:53 (UTC)
Welcome home.
['Okaeri'. Because even if this building, or even this room isn't home, Atsushi's "home" is wherever he and Inaba can be together.
Seeing those tears in her eyes is what spurs him to pull her into a tight hug too.One that he's reluctant to let go of, because it's been Too Long since he's held her like this.]
['Okaeri'. Because even if this building, or even this room isn't home, Atsushi's "home" is wherever he and Inaba can be together.
Seeing those tears in her eyes is what spurs him to pull her into a tight hug too.One that he's reluctant to let go of, because it's been Too Long since he's held her like this.]
Ah, um-
[ She finds herself a little flustered when he suddenly hugs her, but it isn't necessarily a bad thing, as she actually likes being this close to him.
And it has been way too long.
But there's something else she should probably say here, isn't there? ]
Sorry for worrying you all this time, Atsushi.
[ She finds herself a little flustered when he suddenly hugs her, but it isn't necessarily a bad thing, as she actually likes being this close to him.
And it has been way too long.
But there's something else she should probably say here, isn't there? ]
Sorry for worrying you all this time, Atsushi.
It's alright. You're here now.
[And she didn't die again. That's an important factor here. She's alive, and she didn't have to die and get brought back.]
[And she didn't die again. That's an important factor here. She's alive, and she didn't have to die and get brought back.]
You say that like we haven't talked about embarrassing stuff before.
[They're both thirsty teenagers, they've definitely had conversations about things neither of them have much experience in. And then there's just the day-to-day nonsense they get involved in somehow.]
[They're both thirsty teenagers, they've definitely had conversations about things neither of them have much experience in. And then there's just the day-to-day nonsense they get involved in somehow.]
[Sorry, he's just smiling fondly now.]
So what did you want to talk about this time?
So what did you want to talk about this time?
[ Are you really sorry, though...
She pulls away from him a bit to wipe at her tears with her sleeves before awkwardly rubbing at the nape of her neck. ]
There's a few things.
I guess. The first one being that if you wanted to, and only because it's you-- I wanted to give you permission to use my first name.
[ Let's just start with that. That's actually the reason she's embarrassed, too, since her first name is something that decidedly flusters her. ]
She pulls away from him a bit to wipe at her tears with her sleeves before awkwardly rubbing at the nape of her neck. ]
There's a few things.
I guess. The first one being that if you wanted to, and only because it's you-- I wanted to give you permission to use my first name.
[ Let's just start with that. That's actually the reason she's embarrassed, too, since her first name is something that decidedly flusters her. ]
...okay.
[He might have trouble remembering at first, since he's so used to calling her Inaba, but he'll try. If she's giving him permission, then it must be something she's thought long and hard on.]
What else?
[He might have trouble remembering at first, since he's so used to calling her Inaba, but he'll try. If she's giving him permission, then it must be something she's thought long and hard on.]
What else?
...eh?
[That. That is actually pretty hot but he has to tell himself not to take it the wrong way.]
W-we would have to stop eventually, you know.
[He didn't get what she was implying, sorry.]
[That. That is actually pretty hot but he has to tell himself not to take it the wrong way.]
W-we would have to stop eventually, you know.
[He didn't get what she was implying, sorry.]
...eh???
[He sounds even more confused, and now his cheeks are pink.]
But I- I know it's the new moon right now, but even now we still have to worry about the tiger!
[He sounds even more confused, and now his cheeks are pink.]
But I- I know it's the new moon right now, but even now we still have to worry about the tiger!
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