[ She laughs a little bit bitterly that it's almost like someone who's used to having their coffee with sugar in it was suddenly drinking it black; a mistake in a Starbucks order.
Her hands move to grab his own wrists as if that would somehow stabilize her.
But it doesn't, not entirely. Her gaze drops a bit because guilt eats at the pit of her stomach at his words. ]
I didn't help much in alleviating your fears since I kept on volunteering when I had the chance to. . . Even when I was very much aware that I could have died. But I always thought that it would have been better if it was me, not them. If I could protect the others. . .
I'm an idiot, though. I knew that it would hurt you if I did that.
[ Her grip tighens ever so slightly; she doesn't want to let him go. She wants to stay with him. Even if they can come back to life, that doesn't change the simple fact that death is scary. That being alive is honestly a good thing. ]
But in that case. . . whatever you need to say, I want to hear it. And whatever you want to do, I want you to be able to do it. Life is just too goddamn short to have regrets.
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Her hands move to grab his own wrists as if that would somehow stabilize her.
But it doesn't, not entirely. Her gaze drops a bit because guilt eats at the pit of her stomach at his words. ]
I didn't help much in alleviating your fears since I kept on volunteering when I had the chance to. . . Even when I was very much aware that I could have died. But I always thought that it would have been better if it was me, not them. If I could protect the others. . .
I'm an idiot, though. I knew that it would hurt you if I did that.
[ Her grip tighens ever so slightly; she doesn't want to let him go. She wants to stay with him. Even if they can come back to life, that doesn't change the simple fact that death is scary. That being alive is honestly a good thing. ]
But in that case. . . whatever you need to say, I want to hear it. And whatever you want to do, I want you to be able to do it. Life is just too goddamn short to have regrets.