[ She knows full well that it is her fault, so she isn't going to argue with him on that front. In fact, a lot of the things she's done recently are things she isn't necessarily proud of.
Not like she was proud of herself for a lot, anyway. ]
I know. I just didn't want to worry them if they found out that I was in a dangerous part of the city because it was cheaper...
[ She's never wanted to worry them. That's why she's done so much so that they didn't figure out her anxieties or problems. ]
I understand, and I know that's probably why you didn't want me to find out, either. That's why I'm not giving you too much grief.
I just want that set as an expectation for the future, since we both know this isn't where you'll be forever. I'd appreciate you telling me as well, but I'm not going to force it. I just want to know, if I need to find you, it's not going to be a wild goose chase again.
Yeah, you're right. I know it'll be difficult and I'll probably honestly cry a lot more. Anyway, maybe I should get you something to eat? If you want. My treat.
[ He'll probably notice that while she's feeling better, she seems to sound like she's deflecting... almost as if she's avoiding something. ]
Hm... you know. I distinctly recall you telling me off once or twice because I told you not to worry about things, and "that wouldn't stop you from worrying."
Which is to say, it goes both ways. I don't need to know, but something's up, you just admitted it. So, I want to.
They say history repeats itself. Maybe it does, to some extent.
[He's glancing away. He has his own memories, after all, and they're...]
It's hard to fully say what that means without context, but even so. If you feel like you're making the same mistakes as Inaba, if it hurts, then you can work to fix it.
They've had their time. What's left is ours, and if we're going to have their memories, we may as well take them as a motive to grow.
Then take that as motivation. She did, and you will, too.
[He tilts his head a little as he acknowledges her.]
I know you don't want to worry anyone. I'm the same way. But it's not cowardly to talk about the things that are weighing on you. It doesn't make you a burden, or useless.
[ To be honest, she can't help but laugh a little bit when she hears him say those words, a little self derisive. ]
Haha... someone that I remembered told me that I shouldn't be keeping things in. That not everyone can read between the lines or be mind readers. That it's hard to understand each other if we don't use our words to.
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Oh, wait. No, actually. One last thing.
In the future, you're at least giving our parents a real address to find you at, okay? Even if it is in a sketchier part of town.
I'm not going to give you hell for living here. But not having anyone know where you are, if something were to happen... that's dangerous.
All right?
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Not like she was proud of herself for a lot, anyway. ]
I know. I just didn't want to worry them if they found out that I was in a dangerous part of the city because it was cheaper...
[ She's never wanted to worry them. That's why she's done so much so that they didn't figure out her anxieties or problems. ]
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I just want that set as an expectation for the future, since we both know this isn't where you'll be forever. I'd appreciate you telling me as well, but I'm not going to force it. I just want to know, if I need to find you, it's not going to be a wild goose chase again.
That fair to you?
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[ She's actually quiet about it for a good moment as she tries to collect herself, just slowly nodding her head. ]
Yeah.
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[He steps forward again to just rest his palm on her head gently for a moment, as if to finalize this.]
Are we good, now?
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Yeah. Yeah... we are.
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Good.
I do love you, Raina. Don't forget that.
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This feeling of warmth at how much her brother really cares about her is nice, although she feels that she doesn't deserve it. Even if-- ]
I know. And sorry, again, for being a pain in the ass this whole month.
[ Her voice is still a little shaky from earlier, but she's at least managed to smooth most of it over. ]
Anyway, that's it, right? Nothing else you need to talk to me about or anything...? Speak now or forever hold your peace.
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[With a little laugh:]
Yeah. I think so. I think I can stop being a pain in your ass for now.
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[ He'll probably notice that while she's feeling better, she seems to sound like she's deflecting... almost as if she's avoiding something. ]
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[...hm.]
But.
Are you sure that's all you want to talk to me about?
[Just gonna call her out, there.]
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[ Surprise catches in her throat for a moment and she just smiles a little bitterly. ]
Yeah. I'm sure. Don't worry about it. It's nothing you need to know, anyway.
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Which is to say, it goes both ways. I don't need to know, but something's up, you just admitted it. So, I want to.
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[ She takes a short breath in and then out, smiling a little wistfully. ]
I just remembered something a few moments ago. That's all.
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[Not getting off so easily, Raina. Good try, though.]
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She doesn't want to, but she knows that if she doesn't, well...
Nevertheless, the words come out easily, although there's something painful about the way she says them. ]
"I'm disappointed in you, Inaba. I can't believe you would turn your back on your friends. I thought you were better than that."
[...]
That's what I remembered.
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They say history repeats itself. Maybe it does, to some extent.
[He's glancing away. He has his own memories, after all, and they're...]
It's hard to fully say what that means without context, but even so. If you feel like you're making the same mistakes as Inaba, if it hurts, then you can work to fix it.
They've had their time. What's left is ours, and if we're going to have their memories, we may as well take them as a motive to grow.
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[ She still doesn't have the context, but the feelings she had after hearing those words still linger in the back of her mind.
But she shakes her head. ]
Yeah, I guess.
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[The things you need to hear most are often painful, after all...]
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[ She admits that easily, trying so hard to keep the tremble out of her voice. ]
I remembered my reply to him, but I... I don't have the context of why he said that.
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That said.
...It's okay to hurt, though, you know. Until you get that context, or even past that if you need to.
[He puts his hands in his pockets with a sigh.]
Keeping all this stuff to ourselves, trying to tough it out alone... has that ever really helped either of us?
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I just- I know that somehow she made it past this. I'm confident of that much.
[ She mirrors his own sigh with one of her own, glancing up at the ceiling. ]
There's just a lot that I remembered... between the last time we talked and now. But you're right. It hasn't.
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[He tilts his head a little as he acknowledges her.]
I know you don't want to worry anyone. I'm the same way. But it's not cowardly to talk about the things that are weighing on you. It doesn't make you a burden, or useless.
I want to hear them.
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[ To be honest, she can't help but laugh a little bit when she hears him say those words, a little self derisive. ]
Haha... someone that I remembered told me that I shouldn't be keeping things in. That not everyone can read between the lines or be mind readers. That it's hard to understand each other if we don't use our words to.
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Because all that's true. We were given language for a reason, after all.
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