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[dereban]

"What kind of"— the truth, mostly. And ill answer any question you might want to ask me in return.

So it's fair.

[moonlightalter]

...alright.

[Well, he'll give her the truth, but he'll censor it just a bit to make it palatable. She doesn't need to know the nitty-gritty details.]

You probably already know what my power is, right? How I turn into a tiger?

[dereban]

Yeah.

[ She answers firmly, trusting him to give her the entire truth.

She's not a child, after all; she doesn't need things to be sugar coated. ]

[moonlightalter]

Okay, good.

[He takes a deep breath before speaking again.]

I used to work for the mafia. I was part-hitman and part-bodyguard. My job was to keep the boss- Dazai-san- alive by neutralizing any threats to him. Most of the time, this involved killing people.

I did try to make it as quick as possible so they didn't suffer, but that doesn't undo the fact that they were killed by me.

[dereban]

I'd say that there was no possible way of just. . . knocking them out?

[ She can't help but sigh a little bit because this sounds like a difficult situation. A rather difficult one, in fact. ]

[moonlightalter]

They would just come back later. Plus I was ordered to kill them anyway.

[yeah this is going to become a running theme here: "I was ordered to".]

[dereban]

. . . by your boss, I assume.

[ Asking that question because she has a feeling that might be relevant. ]

Anyway, continue.

[moonlightalter]

[YEP it's his boss.]

The rest you can probably figure out on your own. Murder, extortion, bribery, you name it. Dazai-san's hands were dirty, and mine were as well by association. I could have left at any point, but I didn't. I stayed and kept with the work, even though I disliked it.

[dereban]

Why did you stay?

[ Emphasis on the 'why', of course. ]

[moonlightalter]

Because it was the life I knew. Even if I did horrible things, I still had a bed, and food, and control over my ability. So I stayed.

[dereban]

[. . . .]

[ Ah.

That's right, he--

It seems unfair, almost. She wants to cry, but the tears won't come - or maybe she's trying to stop herself, but-

Nevertheless, if she's allowed it, she decides to go and wrap her arms around him. Here, have a hug, Atsushi. ]

[moonlightalter]

[He's not going to stop the hug, because he's not expecting it at all.]

...eh? What's this for?

[dereban]

Just shut up for a bit and let me. Geez, and I thought shit back home was hard. . . It's nothing compared to what you went through.

[moonlightalter]

...okay.

[He's not really one to argue much, even if he feels like his life wasn't as bad as it could have been.

Also he won't say no to a hug, because they feel nice.]

But it's not a competition, you know. Everyone experiences hardships, and one person's being 'worse' doesn't make someone else's any easier.

[dereban]

[ It's also free Chroma, so win-win. ]

I know that. It's just— for a long time, back home, I had a nice life, comparatively. So seeing someone I care about tell me something like this. . .

[moonlightalter]

[It's definitely a win, Atsushi needs that Chroma for food.]

It's still okay. I'm not living that life anymore. I got a second chance here, and I intend on changing things for the better.

[He would argue that things have definitely gotten better, even if he's stumbled a few times along the way.]

Besides, that look on your face is very uncute right now.

[dereban]

. . .

[ She frowns a little bit, pouting ever so slightly at him. ]

Geez, you're saying it as if I look cute making other faces.

[moonlightalter]

And you're saying you don't?

[dereban]

That's--

[ Thanks, Atsushi, you have put her in a spot of embarrassment. ]

[moonlightalter]

[SMILE SMILE]

You're making a cute face right now.

[dereban]

Don't say something like that, [ just pulls away from him a bit ] it's embarrassing.

[moonlightalter]

[He could be Worse, but he decides to relent there.]

Alright, alright. But I'm telling the truth.

[dereban]

I know that much. . .anyway, I'll pass the torch to you, if you wanted to ask me anything more serious.

[moonlightalter]

[Ah, right. He gets to ask a question now. Hmm...]

Do I frighten you?

[He doesn't actually want to scare her, but he needs to know.]

[dereban]

. . .A little. Not entirely your fault, though. I just get afraid of people who have supernatural abilities.

[ Which is only.a half truth, but it works enough for her. ]