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Is that a bad thing? Living for the sake of others?

Who knows. It can be, in some cases.

[She looks up, considering that.]

Maybe it's a difference in culture - I know my Japan is very different from the times here. All of us in the villages live to contribute to our community and make it the best we can.

In the end, maybe the only reason I'm doing what I am is because I feel like that's my duty to improve the lives of everyone as much as I can. But I don't think that's a bad thing, either.

I think in some ways, that isn't a bad thing. Helping each other out. . . improving people's lives. . . it isn't inherently bad.

Do you think there's a bad side to it?

Of course.

Because if you only think about others, you stop thinking about yourself.

[...

Saki looks away at that.]

That's the ideal, where I'm from. Although to be honest, I never managed it myself.

Well, I couldn't expect it from a single person.

[She shoots Inaba a wry smile.]

In my case, I'm probably one of the odd ones out.

We... don't really have the luxury of living entirely for ourselves. The villages are small, and there are all kinds of dangers outside of the Holy Barrier. If it came down to it, we're all prepared to give up our lives if it means saving the villages.

If we didn't, everyone could be wiped out.

Well.

That kind of fucking sucks.

It does.

I miss how peaceful home was, but I'm sure if I ever told anyone, I'd be chided for it. "You must release yourself from your desires to achieve enlightenment, Saki."

[She tries to imitate an elderly man, most likely a priest. It's a terrible impression.]

. . . That's fucking stupid.

You think so?

Yes?

Still, that was all of our lives. It's the only way we could make sure we survived.

[She's smiling, but there's a hint of bitterness to her voice, too.]

Then again, none of us were set on a job to spend the rest of our lives in until we were at least twenty. So if you can't think of something else to live your life for, I think you still have time to decide for yourself.

Well, I do know what job I want for my future, but. . . that's because I've actually seen my future.

Oh? Did you look into your... "canon?"

I didn't want to at first, but I ended up doing it. There were some things I wanted to know.

What would you like to do, then?

Well, in my series. . . I wanted to become a computer analyst.

While I'd still like to, there are things that I want to do more than that. I want to become a therapist.

[...Ahhh.]

We really could use more of those in the Foundation.

Yeah. And now that I'm going through this crap a second time. . . I thought that maybe, I could learn how to do therapy and help others. Because unlike everyone else, all I can do is mundane things like this.

It's definitely a role that puts others first.

[Hmm...]

I still think it's a fine thing to live for, though. People can rely on you, and [she reaches to ruffle the side of Inaba's hair, clearly not thinking about it-] you can still rely on others when you need it, too.

Yeah.

[ Although she's surprised by the hair ruffle, she doesn't seem to mind it. ]

It's a give and take sort of thing, I guess.

[That gets a smile from Saki again.]

Alright. Then let's get you through this so you can get back to your studies - and your friends.

Edited 2019-06-25 06:16 (UTC)

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