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[dereban]

I guess you could argue that in a sense... but they're just a normal person.

[spacialeyes]

Do they take good care of you..?

[dereban]

Well... there are at least two different ones. And both of them have made me suffer in a lot of ways. I guess one of them is still doing that right now, too. Even if that's a bit strange to admit in lieu of everything.

[spacialeyes]

… Alright. I think that I understand.

[Yuuto sighs. He knows that if he was anyone else, then he wouldn’t be able to understand this easily. But Yuuto knows about a library where all worlds and lives are collected as story books. The idea isn’t too far fetched for him to accept.

He moves a hand behind her head again, encouraging her to relax against him.]

That’s scary, huh? No wonder you were so quiet about it.

[dereban]

Sorry.

[ She leans against him, knowing that she can at least try and relax in his presence. ]

I've never actually spoken about this with anyone, before... honestly, I always thought that I'd have to pretend that it just wasn't a thing for the rest of my life, because it's crazy, right? The idea of just being a fucking puppet for someone else all the time.

[spacialeyes]

It’s not that crazy. [But his focus is on stroking her hair and comforting her, not talking about that library. Yuuto sighs again, but this time it’s on purpose; He’s hoping to encourage her, even if subconsciously, to breathe with him.] You’re not crazy for keeping quiet either. It’s hard to talk about scary things.

… You want to change it, huh?

[dereban]

...

[ For a moment, she's silent and contemplative. It's always been difficult for her to talk about things that terrified her: after all, she's lived her life trying to hide the fact that she has fears to begin with; wanting to be a badass, someone that people could consider as strong.

But she knows that she's weak.

Incredibly so.

She hates that part of herself. It's only when she lets out a breath, shutting her eyes to focus a little more and calm herself down that she finally manages: ]

If I could, I would. But... I can't.

[spacialeyes]

[He knows that she’s put a lot of thought into that answer. That’s who Himeko is: She’s someone who can think about something until she’s made herself sick. So he doesn’t want to deny the hardwork and effort that went into that conclusion.

He gentle tangles his fingers in her hair and adjusts his embrace.]

But we can… I love you, Himeko. That’s the only power that I need to want to protect you and make you happy. And you love me too, right?

We’ll figure it out together.

[dereban]

[ It's true: she's had quite some time to stew on this. But usually, she tries not to think about it too much. If she does, she winds up hyperfixating on it and bringing herself into a depressive spiral.

Normally, she'd agree.

She wants to trust in his words, in the love that they have for each other. ]

Of course I do.

[ Why the hell is she hesitating now? It makes her blood boil and anger settle in her chest. ]

I love you so much. The same goes for me, you know. I want you to be happy, too. So even the whole thing about me can't be dealt with, at the very least, we can have these moments of happiness together.

And if there's anything I can do, too... I want to be able to.

[spacialeyes]

Himeko.

[He doesn’t want to scold her. It’s hard to change old thought patterns, even if you have a lover trying to encourage you to.

Yuuto can’t fault her. He hasn’t explained much about his Distortion, because he doesn’t think that it can be fixed either. So when she suggests that they can make these days of being in love happy ones, he submits to the happier daydream. At least for now, they can focus on building their happiness together.]

I hear for you. [He pauses, hand resting on her head, debating if he should shift their positions back to how they were earlier.] Do you want to take a minute to relax? My heart is yours, if you…

[Nope. He’s embarrassed to offer and can’t finish his sentence.]

Should we distract each other? Or… talk more..?

[dereban]

Ah-

[ Her brain fizzles out a little bit at the thought of him mentioning if a distraction is needed. ]

I mean, if you want to do it some more... but I don't mind just talking, either.

[spacialeyes]

[He laughs a bit. As a tease, he catches one of her legs between his in a playful effort to be close. A half distraction.]

Have you maybe reached your limit~? I found your stopping point?

I want to do whatever helps you most. I’m worried about you. You Carrie’s that burden alone for a while, so… I’m worried your heart is tired?

[dereban]

... You're the one I'm worried about having a limit, you idiot!

[ She huffs out a breath, pouting just a bit. ]

Besides, it's fine for now...!

[spacialeyes]

Th-That'll only happen if I'm on the bottom... [Which he still is.

Yuuto feels himself blushing already and tries to refocus the conversation:] Are you sure? Really? I'm going to worry no matter what you say, but still...

[dereban]

Wait, what do you mean by that...!?

[ Now her face is completely red at the thought that the rest of her words come off as flustered babbles. ]

I-It's really fine, I just don't need to think about it too much, that's all-!

[spacialeyes]

W-We don't ever need to find out, right? I-It's fine??

[Yuuto has to move his faces to cover his burning face.]

But- Uhhhh Right! N-No need! So sorry. Don't mind me and my worrying then, uh- Wanna makeout?? [so smooth.]

[dereban]

Now you're making ne curious... but you have to get me in the mood again if you want that.

[spacialeyes]

You're going to tease me if I get too flustered... [He sighs and lowers his hands, looking at her with a half-pouting expression,] I wouldn't mind if it was you who overwhelmed me though, so... Uuu... I can try...

[dereban]

I think I would have teased you regardless, especially since you're making really cute sounds right now.

[spacialeyes]

I-I'm definitely not... [Yuuto pushes himself up on his elbows,] Switch..? I'll be less embarrassing if I'm above you.

[dereban]

You totally are, though.

[ She's going to call him out on it! But she'll shift a bit so he can properly get up. ]

If you're still being embarrassing though, I'll have no other choice but to tease you about it...

[spacialeyes]

Iiiiii… will do my best. [The words leave his mouth and he realizes that he’s admitted that he wants to be teased.] To NOT be embarrassing!

[dereban]

[ She giggles a little bit afterwards. ]

You don't sound convincing at all.

[spacialeyes]

[He’s turning red again.]

Don’t worry about it. [He reaches out to cup her chin, trying to regain some composure.]

Close your eyes?

[So she can’t see him blush!]

[dereban]

I'm going to worry if you say that, you know.

[ She lets out a sigh but nods and closes her eyes for him. ]

I'll trust you.