During that time, my friend still had his power. We both had to rely on him to protect us. It was... really frustrating, though. Using too much cantus can tire out your mind, and he had to do all of it by himself.
It didn't help that we had found ourselves in the middle of a queerat war. Queerats are a species related to the naked mole rats of this time, but they've gained the ability to walk on two feet and even speak. Because of our power, they worship us as gods, but since only one of us actually had power, we had to put on an act.
They wanted us to do as they asked so they could win the war. But if we messed up, we were sure they would kill us.
I guess what I'm trying to say is... I've been in a similar place before.
I think that might actually give you a better perspective than some of us, though.
[She tilts her head down thoughtfully.]
To be honest, I spent most of my time monitoring how Satoru was doing; I could tell when he was getting tired. But I could also be a second pair of eyes to help him direct his power when we were ambushed.
Basically... even though we know our powers, there's things we might miss because we're so focused on ourselves. Having someone who can see the bigger picture could be really helpful.
"Better", huh. Even if I hate abilities like those?
[ Which is ironic given the kind of people she likes.
And is dating. ]
But you're right that I have an outside perspective. And people sometimes become overreliant on it. And with Dazai, using powers just isn't going to work.
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...You don't believe me, do you?
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[And not saying things doesn't mean that isn't true.]
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I've known too many people who lie. They always tried to make things sound sweeter than it really is.
[Her whole society was like that. A beautiful farce of peace.]
I can't make you say anything you don't want to. But it's normal to be stressed out in a situation like this, too.
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[ She doesn't answer, just looking completely quiet at it all. ]
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Do you... remember how I told you about how average I am? In my world, that is.
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But to the point. One of the most dangerous times in my life, I wasn't able to use my cantus at all. I was totally powerless.
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[...] And?
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During that time, my friend still had his power. We both had to rely on him to protect us. It was... really frustrating, though. Using too much cantus can tire out your mind, and he had to do all of it by himself.
It didn't help that we had found ourselves in the middle of a queerat war. Queerats are a species related to the naked mole rats of this time, but they've gained the ability to walk on two feet and even speak. Because of our power, they worship us as gods, but since only one of us actually had power, we had to put on an act.
They wanted us to do as they asked so they could win the war. But if we messed up, we were sure they would kill us.
I guess what I'm trying to say is... I've been in a similar place before.
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But. . . yeah, I get it.
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[She tilts her head down thoughtfully.]
To be honest, I spent most of my time monitoring how Satoru was doing; I could tell when he was getting tired. But I could also be a second pair of eyes to help him direct his power when we were ambushed.
Basically... even though we know our powers, there's things we might miss because we're so focused on ourselves. Having someone who can see the bigger picture could be really helpful.
Does that make sense?
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[ Which is ironic given the kind of people she likes.
And is dating. ]
But you're right that I have an outside perspective. And people sometimes become overreliant on it. And with Dazai, using powers just isn't going to work.
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Even if it's something you hate. And you're right- I know I'm used to relying on cantus for everything, even when I don't need to.
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[ Using powers on him is kind of pointless. ]
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I've grown up with my cantus for the past fourteen years, so I'm sure I'm over reliant on it.
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I've learned a lot of stuff, though. Mundane stuff.
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[Spoken with the tone of reliving a terrible childhood memory.]
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