I heard that mumble, and I'm going to save both of us the agony and not ask.
[He can learn! As for switching topics, he sighs.]
...Well. [Talking about his memories will be a pretty abrupt mood swing, but. He has to. That's what he's here for.] Where do I even start? There's... a lot I've been having to think through recently.
I guess I'll leave it up to you. Which would you rather me talk about first: the thing that took over, or Crow?
[From his tone of voice, neither of these topics are good.]
[Rean really never needs to know about That secret. He'd probably expire on the spot.
A sigh as he collects himself as well.]
Well... bad news is, I don't have a definitive answer for you. I'm not sure my other self quite knew what it was, either.
I remembered the first time it took over – took my other self over – right when Elliot brought us out of it. I was nine, and my past self's sister – Elise – and I got ambushed by this bear-like monster. I tried to protect her, and it nearly took me out. When I realized how much danger she'd be in if I did, I just...
blacked out.
When I came to, I'd ripped the thing to pieces. There was blood all over the snow, all over the little hatchet I'd brought to cut through branches, and all over me. Elise was crying, and it was because she was afraid of me, not the monster.
[He can't look her in the eye as he recounts all that. He manages to keep his tone more or less even, but Raina knows him better than anyone – she'll be able to pick up the way his voice just slightly wavers, how he's fidgeting, how his brows are knitting together.
He's scared.]
...The good news is that I've been meeting up with Eren. He's trying to help me learn to control it, so that what happened last time doesn't happen again.
[ Raina is quiet as she listens to his recollection, and thankfully she takes it all in with a neutral expression on her features, just simply watching carefully the subtle shifts in how his voice wavers and how he seems to fidget a bit.
And then she goes ahead and reaches out to him from across the table, to put a hand on his arm to tell him that she's there.
She's here for him. ]
Okay, so which do you want to hear from? The words from your sister or the words from a friend that is taking psychology classes?
Then, there's a few things that I should say. It's okay to be scared of what you don't understand or know too much about. Honestly, I'd be scared, too.
[ While her voice might try to be gentle, there's a slight waver there that catches slightly. And he'll feel that her fingers on his arm are trembling a bit, too. ]
Also, as your sister, rather than your friend, I know it's all fiction but maybe if whatever plan Eren has in mind doesn't work, you might want to fall back on a Plan B. There's a lot of anime that cover this sort of thing, so I could suggest that to you to watch it and see if anything they do to solve those sorts of problems might help... Although it's kind of stupid, isn't it?
I do have other things I could suggest that might be helpful off the top of my head based on what you told me, too, if you want to hear those, but that's more of "the friend" talking rather than "your sister". If you want to hear it.
[He notices her trembling, and his response is just to move his arm out from under her hand so that he can take her hand in his.
They'll be scared together.]
Heh... it's not that stupid. This whole thing is already like something straight out of an anime, and it's only going to get more ridiculous from here. Really, at this point, I might as well.
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Will you tell me over text, then?
[She has a point, but there is no escape.]
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apparently i forgot to change my icon last time whoops???
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Geez. I'll text you... But you're going to regret it. And then I'll tell you "I told you so". Okay?
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I'll gladly accept any and all admonishments you give me after the fact.
I won't make you do it until after this, though, if it embarrasses you that much.
[See? He's a good brother!]
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[ Raina sighs a little defeatedly, taking her cell phone from her purse as she takes it out and quickly types out the message.
She's ready to die.
(I'm so sorry she's like this, Rean.) ]
Before he asked me out, he heard a mental thought of mine of me wanting to... do him.
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At least he was polite enough to ask you out first. I... guess.
[Cough.]
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I do, I do. I really don't need to hear what happened next, thanks!
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[He can learn! As for switching topics, he sighs.]
...Well. [Talking about his memories will be a pretty abrupt mood swing, but. He has to. That's what he's here for.] Where do I even start? There's... a lot I've been having to think through recently.
I guess I'll leave it up to you. Which would you rather me talk about first: the thing that took over, or Crow?
[From his tone of voice, neither of these topics are good.]
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[ Although when he does manage to switch topics, she can't help but let out a sigh to try and collect herself in hopes that at least she can listen.
Switching comes naturally to her, at least. ]
But okay. Let's go with the thing that took over, because I want to know what that is first.
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A sigh as he collects himself as well.]
Well... bad news is, I don't have a definitive answer for you. I'm not sure my other self quite knew what it was, either.
I remembered the first time it took over – took my other self over – right when Elliot brought us out of it. I was nine, and my past self's sister – Elise – and I got ambushed by this bear-like monster. I tried to protect her, and it nearly took me out. When I realized how much danger she'd be in if I did, I just...
blacked out.
When I came to, I'd ripped the thing to pieces. There was blood all over the snow, all over the little hatchet I'd brought to cut through branches, and all over me. Elise was crying, and it was because she was afraid of me, not the monster.
[He can't look her in the eye as he recounts all that. He manages to keep his tone more or less even, but Raina knows him better than anyone – she'll be able to pick up the way his voice just slightly wavers, how he's fidgeting, how his brows are knitting together.
He's scared.]
...The good news is that I've been meeting up with Eren. He's trying to help me learn to control it, so that what happened last time doesn't happen again.
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[ Raina is quiet as she listens to his recollection, and thankfully she takes it all in with a neutral expression on her features, just simply watching carefully the subtle shifts in how his voice wavers and how he seems to fidget a bit.
And then she goes ahead and reaches out to him from across the table, to put a hand on his arm to tell him that she's there.
She's here for him. ]
Okay, so which do you want to hear from? The words from your sister or the words from a friend that is taking psychology classes?
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Ideally, my sister. That is who I came out to talk to, after all.
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[ While her voice might try to be gentle, there's a slight waver there that catches slightly. And he'll feel that her fingers on his arm are trembling a bit, too. ]
Also, as your sister, rather than your friend, I know it's all fiction but maybe if whatever plan Eren has in mind doesn't work, you might want to fall back on a Plan B. There's a lot of anime that cover this sort of thing, so I could suggest that to you to watch it and see if anything they do to solve those sorts of problems might help... Although it's kind of stupid, isn't it?
I do have other things I could suggest that might be helpful off the top of my head based on what you told me, too, if you want to hear those, but that's more of "the friend" talking rather than "your sister". If you want to hear it.
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They'll be scared together.]
Heh... it's not that stupid. This whole thing is already like something straight out of an anime, and it's only going to get more ridiculous from here. Really, at this point, I might as well.
I'm willing to hear whatever you have, though.
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