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[dereban]

Raina Schwarzer

"Sorry if I can't pick up right now, but if you leave a message, I'll get back to you as soon as possible. Thanks."

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[dereban]

That's true. I did ask for this, in a way. Thanks, I hate it.

So are you done?

[motiv8]

That depends.

Are you willing to accept any of what I just said, as more than a token agreement to get me off your back?

Am I allowed to be friends with both you and other people without having to worry in the pit of my stomach that you hate them? That you hate me?

[dereban]

[ Another lengthy pause, for about more than a minute or two before she answers with a simple word: ] Yes.

[motiv8]

I would like you to actually spell it out, if that's all right.

Sorry for being pedantic, but after everything that happened last month, and not just in the hospital, I don't want to leave anything to assumptions.

Of course, I'm open to it if you want anything similar from me, as well.

[dereban]

Okay, I'll be more specific, then. I was always fine with you having other friends. I don't hate them, or you. I was happy when you told me that you had other friends, but I was also kind of sad, too.

[motiv8]

Because you feel like you can't have your own?

[dereban]

Yeah.

I don't trust people, after all.

[motiv8]

Maybe you don't need to. Without Retrospec in our way, we got along just fine all those years without you trusting me, after all, and you've said yourself I'm your friend.

I don't know. I'm not an expert in this myself, I don't understand why anyone's sticking around at all after what happened, much less apologizing to me. But here we are.




I don't really know what I'm trying to say at this point

Just. If you promise to try to reach out on your own, I forgive you for everything that happened down there.

I still believe in you, I still care about you, and you don't have to understand why.

[dereban]

I don't know if I can uphold that promise...

Honestly it's kind of scary to reach out.

[motiv8]

It is. But that makes success all the sweeter, doesn't it?

[dereban]

Guess so.

Anyway, now are we done?

[motiv8]

Guess so.

[dereban]

[ Well, she's not going to reply because it seems like their conversation is over, but suddenly (I'm so sorry, Rean) he'll hear a very familiar voice in his head. Spoilers: it's Raina's. [Oh thank god we didn't talk about the other thing, since I just remembered that my past life had a boyfriend...] Well then. ]

[motiv8]

[Rean needs a minute, because what? What?

There's a whole lot to unpack, there, but he'll just send this:]

Soooo. On another topic entirely.

Any reason why I just heard your voice in my head talking about your past life having a boyfriend? Because that sure just happened.

[dereban]

[ SCREAMING INTERNALLY ] Forget you heard anything.

[motiv8]

Oh, no. You don't get out of this so easily.

Tell me everything.

[dereban]

[ WHY............. ] Look, I don't really know much but. It might have to do with the fact that I remembered last night that my past self started dating someone. She confessed mentally (which she had no control over) a lot of embarrassing things and then he asked her out. That's it.

[motiv8]

Is this the same guy you were talking about on the Retrospec post?

[Rean, why are you so concerned. There's a very real chance he doesn't even exist in this world.]

[dereban]

So what if it is, huh?!

[motiv8]

Because even if I wasn't your brother in our past lives, I'm your brother now, and I need to make sure anyone you like is worthy of your affections!

[dereban]

OH MY GOD It's fine?! He's fine!!

[motiv8]

I'm not asking if he's attractive, I'm asking if he's a good person!

[dereban]

Get your bisexual ass out of the gutter! He's a good person, okay? Or do I have to tell you every last detail of what I remember about him?!

[motiv8]

As if yours doesn't go there, too!

I mean... I am interested in hearing about your memories, just because they're yours. It doesn't necessarily have to do with whoever this guy is.

But in regards to him, no, that's good. Even if that guy isn't necessarily here, if you developed feelings for some jerk, I don't know if I could take it...

[dereban]

Don't call me out like this.

Well, I don't really want to talk about them over text. And don't worry, I wouldn't have feelings for a jerk. I'm not that stupid.

[ In spite of her having a memory of him saying something cruel to her in some ways... but Rean doesn't need to know that. ]